losing control : Dancing with the Devil

“I crossed a line I’d never crossed in addiction.”
In part I of this fearless documentary series, Demi Lovato and her family and friends candidly open up for the first time about what led to her near-fatal overdose.

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Production Companies: OBB Pictures, SB Films
Director: Michael D. Ratner
Executive Producers: Michael D. Ratner, Scott Ratner, Scooter Braun, Allison Kaye, Scott Manson, Kfir Goldberg, Miranda Sherman, Andy Mininger

Pre-order Demi Lovato’s new album ‘Dancing With The Devil… The Art Of Starting Over’ DemiLovato.lnk.to/DWTDTAOSOID


  1. Andrea Rueda

    Andrea Rueda

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    i love demi so much ❤️❤️❤️

  2. Yang King

    Yang King

    17 minutter siden

    You are my inspiration to continue studying medicine and drug abuse issues~~ Mental illness plus addiction are the worst combination. Hope you could have found a strong family medicine doctor.

  3. Jaime Muñoz Martinez

    Jaime Muñoz Martinez

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    Why I don’t like her mom?

  4. arisboca


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    I hope she wanted to share this not forced to sit in front of a camera and talk.

  5. Carine Todmia

    Carine Todmia

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    i feel like shes around a lot of toxic positivity

  6. Doarda


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    essa é minha terceira vez aqui TE AMO ❤️❤️🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷

  7. Devuan G

    Devuan G

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    Demi your beautiful know mater if you have a thick or a small waste your beautiful

  8. Meko J.

    Meko J.

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    Is anyone else getting an error message on your TV trying to watch? Or a notification that the video requires payment?

  9. Joao Padilha

    Joao Padilha

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    Desculpe isso não é rock

  10. Jordyn Mora

    Jordyn Mora

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    the fact that i saw her the day before her od💔.

  11. David H.

    David H.

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    Is this the same chick that put G-Easy, or whatever his name is, on blast for being an addict a few years back? Dancing with the Devil. Ok.

  12. Keyla Coccarelli

    Keyla Coccarelli

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    It’s the ads every two second for me

  13. Ailsa Ni

    Ailsa Ni

    11 timer siden

    To hear that she’s still drinking and smoking is shocking

  14. unstable Pineapple

    unstable Pineapple

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    I think that people who put there kids on a screen are selfish and shouldn't have those kids anymore. Something so common with child stars is that they say it's hard to say no when they are the breadwinner and that's so sad with all these family channels and knowing how hard it can be for adults to find work so if they can sell their kid to the devil then ya they'd do it if it meant they'd get a bunch of money

  15. Felden Krais

    Felden Krais

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    What a hack. Take away her microphone and she can't carry a tune in a bucket

  16. Sophia Leydon

    Sophia Leydon

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    I feel like the image that her and her team continues to push of her being a warrior and survivor is their way of trying to control the narrative. I feel like it’s actually harmful to Demi’s recovery, it puts a lot of added pressure on her when in reality recovery is hard enough as it is. Having to be a positive role model when Demi is still actively on her journey of recovery is asking too much of her. She’s the sort of person who wants to be completely open about every part of her addiction and eating disorder but it just makes her feel even more ashamed and guilty when she has relapses (because recovery isn’t a uphill process, setbacks are common). I think if her recovery team really cared for her they would let her know that she should keep her process quiet from the public, even if she thinks she can handle the public scrutiny at the time she may feel differently later when she’s not feeling as strong. She really doesn’t owe the public or media anything, she should be allowed to keep it private if it’s what’s best for her recovery long term.

  17. Lexie Wall

    Lexie Wall

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    I was at her show in Newcastle in 2018 must have been less than a month before the overdose. You could 100% tell she wasn’t happy. She looked miserable between every song-like she was going through the motions.

  18. erika braga

    erika braga

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    Love her. This is so helpful to many

  19. Emily Marshall

    Emily Marshall

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    I literally don’t understand why she keeps having to make these documentaries about her struggles and lowest points of her life.. unless of course, for financial profit. That’s sad, she shouldn’t have to do this

  20. WNM


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    Demi is so brave. Our hearts go out to you Demi. This video and “Clover Cage - Thorn In The Side Of The King” are the only two things keeping me sane through these tough times. I just want to send love to everyone and I want everyone to know things will get better...We are in this together...I love you...💕

  21. Ana Ruiz

    Ana Ruiz

    17 timer siden

    I saw you in Madrid Airport before you flew to Rock In Rio, Lisbon. I slightly came to you and told you that I was flying to Lisbon as well just to see her performing! You smiled at me but, when we made eye contact, I realized that your look was sad.. I pushed a bit back because I did not want to disturb you but then I had a mix of emotions because I felt blessed to have seen you but It broke my heart seeing you like that.. Wishing you the sweetest path of life. and sm love for you

  22. José Junior

    José Junior

    18 timer siden

    Na imagem inicial pensei q era a Sheila Carvalho kkk

  23. Melissa Ortiz

    Melissa Ortiz

    20 timer siden

    Oh my gosh. Her story about her dad is exactly how it was with my dad. I loved my dad more thank anything but he was an alcoholic and drug user and 4 years ago I had to do the hardest thing and distance myself. Last year in March my dad passed away alone. He was alone until someone found him. We don’t know the exact day he passed as well. It was always a fear of mine that he would pass alone. I totally know how she feels. It’s hard and I’m still struggling with it. Demi is amazing and strong I hope she can pull through the pain. Like I’m trying too.

  24. Lauren Elizabeth Ann

    Lauren Elizabeth Ann

    21 time siden

    She's real that's why her fans love her! Her music and her realness has saved me so many times from my own mental health issues and suicidal thoughts etc. I love you so much Demi 💖

  25. melancícia


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    My problem with this is it feels hysterical. Don't doubt her suffering tho It's no joke when you don't know how to live more lightly

  26. Jasmine West

    Jasmine West

    22 timer siden

    Demi this literally hit me in the gut with the similarities in the way we grew up. My father was schizophrenic and a h*rion addict. He beat my mom also. We moved away from him and I stopped talking to him in 2010. He died in 2016 by his addiction. He was found in his room. I have been fighting to stay away from his path, but at 16 I was binge drinking. At 17 I had a horrible adderall addiction. I lost 78lbs in 3 months. At 18 I went back to my childhood home and started focusing on my mental health. Stay strong hun 💖 you’re not alone.

  27. Zeynep Didem Keskin

    Zeynep Didem Keskin

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    we need more language translations :(

  28. Victory Nwanguma

    Victory Nwanguma

    Dag siden

    i never really understood the depth of her OD till i watched this, i am soo happy she is alive, well and at a much better place

  29. Sydney Dina

    Sydney Dina

    Dag siden

    losing my dad caused me to lose control. I just want people to get it

  30. Michael


    Dag siden

    who else got chills when the news reports about her OD was going on like i started tearing up

  31. PerfectlyImperfectMae


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    Demi is so beautiful without the make up.

  32. PerfectlyImperfectMae


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    i felt so close to demi here.

  33. Aaron S

    Aaron S

    Dag siden

    We really giving junkies 11 mil views talking about them being junkies but everyones up in arms over Dr. Suess

  34. bouytt guyt

    bouytt guyt

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    strength is amazing in telling your story about your OD. I love you unconditionally!!

  35. Mary B.

    Mary B.

    Dag siden

    not the midrolls 😭

  36. Katakin Goth

    Katakin Goth

    Dag siden

    Take care of you Demi; the world will always be here. We would rather you be here with us, please stay safe and stay healthy. Love you!

  37. novembergrams


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    In her 2017 doc, she said she idolized amy winehouse and wanted to be like her. Hope she stops leaning on drugs and alcohol because that didn't end well for Amy. Her talent is enough.

  38. Monique Triana

    Monique Triana

    Dag siden

    What people don't understand is she really is dancing g with Satan. Mk ultra. She sold her soul a while ago for fame. Poor girl

  39. Ethan Gaddiz

    Ethan Gaddiz

    Dag siden

    There was like triggers

  40. Ethan Gaddiz

    Ethan Gaddiz

    Dag siden

    Very intriguing

  41. Me


    Dag siden

    I honestly wasn’t a fan until a few years ago because she back more real. I feel so bad anyone needs to feel perfect because of you make a life choice or do something then others might to do and then you get blamed. Which is so toxic. Everyone needs to be themselves

  42. Camila Garridoシ

    Camila Garridoシ

    Dag siden

    I love you 🥺❤️

  43. Rania Assal Del Valle

    Rania Assal Del Valle

    Dag siden

    Is this 13+ or 16+?

  44. Aishwarya Ramasamy

    Aishwarya Ramasamy

    Dag siden

    Demi is a true SURVIVOR

  45. Rickia Smith

    Rickia Smith

    Dag siden

    To be quite honest, I am not a huge fan of Demi's music however I have been following her story for the last few years. I am glad that she has found outlet and she is able to tell her side of the story. TMZ, tabloids and others new sources tell you what they are allowed to tell. I will never know what its like to be an addict's but I have watched some growing up and its a uphill battle. I refuse to believe that her team is doing this for "clout" I think Demi has gotten to where she knows who is supposed to be around her. I just pray that Demi is strong enough to stay up and/or and I hope that there are those around her who can help her heal.

  46. rey max

    rey max

    Dag siden

    eres una mujer muy bella pero sobretodo muy valiente y tienes a mucha gente que te ama aunque no te conosca en persona eres una persona muy importante amate a ti misma y disfruta de lo bello de tu alrededor

  47. Clarissa Caldwell

    Clarissa Caldwell

    Dag siden

    Most celebrities and such a hooked on drugs and alcohol. It sad because the people who are around them don't care because they're drug addicts too.

  48. Daeja Galaska

    Daeja Galaska

    Dag siden

    The lady that said "be careful" just knew. She could feel something. And Demi was tearing up. The empathy was real . Demi really needed that, I hope she still thinks about it . Bc I would

  49. chris.win


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    she’s so damn privileged 😂 can’t believe y’all actually feel bad for her 😂

  50. Artista plástico brasileiro arte naif

    Artista plástico brasileiro arte naif

    Dag siden


  51. Jessica Nunes

    Jessica Nunes

    Dag siden


  52. Lupe Mo

    Lupe Mo

    Dag siden

    Her childhood trauma from her father and from being this celebrity can be too much I’m sure. Maybe if she just ran away from everything for a while she could actually find the peace she is longing for

  53. Leyla Brown

    Leyla Brown

    Dag siden

    i don't think she's gay at all i think she just had so much trauma that she's trying so hard to find love but that isnt it

  54. cris yane

    cris yane

    Dag siden

    proud of you Demi

  55. Little_mk_1122 MK

    Little_mk_1122 MK

    Dag siden

    they really open about the devil now lmao

  56. Allyssa Gray

    Allyssa Gray

    Dag siden

    It's just insane that I've watched her my whole life and now even thought addiction she is still inspiring me to stay sober amd do better and that I'm worth it

  57. Jill durham

    Jill durham

    Dag siden

    It was her mom who put her in the cameras at a young age. She was placed in beauty pagents by her parents (mainly her mom). NO child should ever live in the spotlight.

  58. Nikki R Strong

    Nikki R Strong

    Dag siden

    I've always smiled bigger because of demi. I love her

  59. Catie Carroll

    Catie Carroll

    2 dager siden

    The importance of this is monumental. My heart goes out to my brothers and sisters struggling with this illness. I love you.

  60. Hanna Baby

    Hanna Baby

    2 dager siden

    I don’t really know about Demi? Like I missed this whole time she is famous I don’t remember her like I remember miley Cyrus etc

  61. Natalie H

    Natalie H

    2 dager siden

    And now she wants to do a comedy series on her eating disorder. She really has lost her mind. 🙄

    • Natalie H

      Natalie H

      12 timer siden

      @Aniyah Renee Yes.

    • Aniyah Renee

      Aniyah Renee

      13 timer siden


  62. Milena F. da Costa

    Milena F. da Costa

    2 dager siden

    a voz da renata vasconcellos do nada

  63. nieooj gotoy

    nieooj gotoy

    2 dager siden

    Everyone should understand that. We love you, Demi. 💜

  64. penguinsRawesome


    2 dager siden

    I just love her and her voice is sooo wow! I can listen to her all day! I can also relate to her, addiction wise. ❤️ Demi U R BEAUTIFUL!!😍 If u don't have anything nice to say, like in some comments I'm reading, dont say sh** @ all! It's unnecessary. 🙏

  65. Alexis Harris

    Alexis Harris

    2 dager siden

    U r amazing

  66. Brenda HARGRAVE

    Brenda HARGRAVE

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    • nieooj gotoy

      nieooj gotoy

      2 dager siden

      It’s interesting they called this dancing with the devil. Because a dance with the devil can last forever. She’s truly lucky to not have died while in the hands of the underdog.



    2 dager siden


  68. ramirezannette0


    2 dager siden

    What's with everyone saying "I'm so proud of her bullshit", she's HUMAN she's got problems like every body else give her a f@$&ng break!, give her some peace

  69. SelenaVi


    2 dager siden

    Después de ver esto, me siento triste

  70. Kay Peterson

    Kay Peterson

    2 dager siden

    Oh Demi. I can relate about dad as well as other stuff you have gone through. I love you.

    • minij hooi

      minij hooi

      2 dager siden

      She is so pretty Drew Barrymore had Demi Lovato on her show April 13th and she really opened up a lot as a matter of fact they both did it's a must-watch don't miss it

  71. Kellyann Theoneandonly

    Kellyann Theoneandonly

    2 dager siden

    Is it that hard to have your sketch artist draw a figure you were shape?

    • minij hooi

      minij hooi

      2 dager siden

      in Jiu-Jitsu now that alone takes a lot of concentration press civilians Focus

  72. Levi Franklin

    Levi Franklin

    2 dager siden

    Heavy Heavy stuff

  73. Tiffany Anderson

    Tiffany Anderson

    2 dager siden

    Well wait one minute, my mother has been on crack off and on since I was a child and it was obvious she was using crack. Now I don’t know what crack Demi was using or even heroin but it definitely wasn’t the stuff the people on the streets are using turning the into Zombies.

  74. Kim Zuzu

    Kim Zuzu

    2 dager siden

    Yo te admiro no por qué seas "perfecta", lo hago porque, a pesar de todo, siempre tratas de luchar por seguir. Somos humanos, y claro que tenemos recaídas, si el problema no se toma de raíz. Eres muy admirable Demi, estoy tan orgullosa d ti 💜

  75. Dylan Blanton

    Dylan Blanton

    2 dager siden

    your story makes me feel a little less alone. been clean since 12/01/2018. my girlfriend died in front of me, she was addicted to heroin and crashed the car- my back was broken. then my best friend was murdered. thanks for sharing

  76. Allysa Read

    Allysa Read

    2 dager siden

    To the most relatable superstar. I love you, and thank you... from the bottom of my heart

  77. YAG


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  78. Angie Perry

    Angie Perry

    2 dager siden

    I know you'll never see this but I won't u to know this morning on April 13 21 I heard your song dancing with devil and it shook my soul as a addict surviving from oxycottin and I too died seriously flat linked with my soon to be husband atm doing chest compressions and his dad doing breath luckily the ambulance came they hooked me up and on the 3rd shock and 2nd adrenaline shot I made a heart blip on the screen n they called a crash ambulance I didn't awaken for day or 2 n the dr told me I was lucky like 1 in a billion odds hitting lottery lucky cause I was gone ! .I now am a proud recovery because in addiction you are only recovered for that moment its day to day . So now I'm a loving ❤proud mommy of a boy better daughter , better friend , better me . I've thankfully not relasped any sense I got pregnant ! Thank u demi for being a role model for me your the most relatable icon I follow shine bright baby cause your the best gods with u 💓.

  79. Celestine Cole

    Celestine Cole

    2 dager siden

    She was hospitalized on my birthday:(

  80. Johan Garcia

    Johan Garcia

    2 dager siden

    Es increíble ver que un ser que estaba en la cima, la cual lucho tanto por tenerla se hubiese dejado llevar por aquellas emociones que le costaba dejar salir, solo deseo que te sientas en este momento feliz de seguir entre los vivos y entiendas que el futuro se forja teniendo en cuenta de donde salimos y hasta donde deseamos llegar. Un abrazo muy caluroso desde Colombia.

  81. WOKETV


    2 dager siden

    It’s interesting they called this dancing with the devil. Because a dance with the devil can last forever. She’s truly lucky to not have died while in the hands of the underdog.

    • Jessica Leigh

      Jessica Leigh

      2 dager siden

      That's the point, she will be dancing with the devil forever. Sober or not. Addiction doesn't just go away

  82. Claireabell Hayward

    Claireabell Hayward

    2 dager siden

    DAMN.... i am so happy she's still here!! and truly feeling happy. xx

  83. Allan Marques

    Allan Marques

    3 dager siden

    Parece a Michele Bolsonaro kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

  84. Hasan Muhammad

    Hasan Muhammad

    3 dager siden

    I'm so happy for car she got herself together you asked a question she said tell me something that I don't know about you and people don't know she said I'm a super purple belt in Jiu-Jitsu now that alone takes a lot of concentration press civilians Focus

  85. Hasan Muhammad

    Hasan Muhammad

    3 dager siden

    She is so pretty Drew Barrymore had Demi Lovato on her show April 13th and she really opened up a lot as a matter of fact they both did it's a must-watch don't miss it

  86. Pri Scilla

    Pri Scilla

    3 dager siden

    Hopefully she takes a break from social media after this . ✨

  87. M L

    M L

    3 dager siden

    She should take some time away from all this, in my opinion. I don’t think u can blame the people around her because if she’s telling them something else but feeling different things, they can’t do anything. It’s not the people around her, it’s the world, the pressure of everyone.

  88. Allies Dbg

    Allies Dbg

    3 dager siden

    What's with the title... SMH

  89. Emily Gilliard

    Emily Gilliard

    3 dager siden

    I love that she's sharing her story to help others. She needs some time out of the limelight so she can just take care of herself.. maybe find another team who won't keep doing this to her

  90. Emily An

    Emily An

    3 dager siden

    addictions are.

  91. Pam Cameron

    Pam Cameron

    3 dager siden

    Your my inspiration

  92. Gloria


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    I am so sad for her... This gives us a big lesson: just because someone is famous, rich and pretty, it doesn't mean they are not going to have problems. We think that they have everything, but the truth is that they are alone, and loneliness leads most of them to do things that are going to hurt them. She is very lucky to be still alive after all that. Others celebrities weren't that lucky. Hope she understands that if she survived this, it's for a reason. Her life isn't over yet, she still has a lot to do and say. Hope she'll start taking her health seriously, and being sober and out of drugs forever.

  93. Jacqueline Marie

    Jacqueline Marie

    3 dager siden

    sober resonates with me so much every night but especially tonight. so happy i stumbled on this

    • Emily An

      Emily An

      3 dager siden

      coração. Para mim é uma das melhores vozes no mundo inteiro.

  94. Walter Coinprofit

    Walter Coinprofit

    3 dager siden

    There is a famous character, a Google search for "signals walter bulls". He made a fortune for himself back in 2018. Recently, such services have appeared that allow copying the results of professional players. This guy shows how to copy after him automatically using such a service. We must try while the market is on the rise

  95. Julliana Alcala

    Julliana Alcala

    3 dager siden

    But I love you

  96. Julliana Alcala

    Julliana Alcala

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  97. Maddie Kerr

    Maddie Kerr

    3 dager siden

    I’m so very proud of you!!! I love u so much!❤️💜

  98. TBIcan Sparkle

    TBIcan Sparkle

    3 dager siden

    In sharing such personal pain with the world you are reducing the stigma that comes with addiction and relapse. Ultimately the sacrifice of your privacy will save lives. 💜🙏🏽

  99. Danielle Lang

    Danielle Lang

    3 dager siden

    I was at that concert in Columbus 😔

  100. priya randell

    priya randell

    3 dager siden

    This hits so so hard. I'm drug addict. I was addicted to meth for almost four years and finally got clean...now I'm struggling with cocaine and alcohol. The respect I have for demi is unexplainable. Even not knowing her, I look up to her, I feel her pain. I understand the feeling of NOT wanting to do these things, but still do them for some reason...waking up the next morning thinking to yourself about how your not gonna do it tonight. Your done....then the next thing you know, your high.. Demi, your brave. And I'm so so happy for you. So happy. ❤️